Chapter 11: Finally Public

Spring Break was over and I had made my way back to school.  I had more motivation in me at this point than most people have in their entire lives.  Even my choir director at school had made comments on my weight-loss.  I was determined, motivated, and dedicated.  I was back at the gym and I was still going strong.  Until April.  April hit and I slowly started slacking for the first week or so.  I couldn't have that.  As soon as the first week was over I jumped right back on the band wagon....I'm not sure why it's always a wagon, maybe it's easier to fall off versus falling "out of the Mustang".  

I worked my butt off for the weeks following and I told myself I would lose weight.  It wasn't really until this point that I made my official goal: To lose 100lbs by my 20th birthday which is March 20, 2010.  I began to tell people about my goal and everyone really supported me.  While working out I started tanning again as an added boost of confidence.  I also talked to a few people and learned that the Daily Helmsman would actually write an article about me showcasing my weight-loss and showing others that you can change your life.  This is to be written in March of 2010.  All of this is great and all but at the same time it scares the crap out of me.  What if I don't meet my goal?  What if I fail?  Everyone will be let down, and at this point pretty much every person I know knows that I'm losing weight.  It's no longer just for me.