Chapter 4: My First Semester

I had been accepted into the University of Memphis, with a full scholarship for Voice.  I would move to Memphis in August of 2008.  I thought, "Moving to college will be the perfect opportunity to lose weight."  However, I always said this, but I never took the opportunity. 

Throughout the first semester I was miserable.  Being six hours away from my family and friends played a huge role in my emotions.  At the end of September my Bulimia relapsed.  I started binging and purging several times a week.  I was losing a little bit of weight, but I was also getting extremely sick and depressed.  At the end of November I had decided to drop out of school, and move back home.  My roommate walked in on me during my "breakdown"...I was sitting in front of my laptop in tears.  This was not just the lil tears dropping from my face, this was the whole "ugly cry" as I like to call it.  It was runny nose, sobbing, hiccups, crying...the whole package.  He sat down infront of me and asked what was wrong.  I told him and he looked at me and said, "You need to get up, wash your face and be strong.  It's ok to feel sorry for yourself for a few minutes, but you can't sit here and cry forever.  You can't quit school, and you can't leave.  Be strong."  I took his advice.