Chapter 18: I AM The Biggest Loser

Ok so if it's not obvious enough I'm a huge BL fan! I've seen every episode this season and I own the entire season on my iPod. I don't own a TV in my dorm room so the only place for me to watch the BL (other than a friends' room) is at the gym. The treadmills have TVs on them so that's my main excuse to go to the gym every Tuesday lol. But I've realized once I go to the gym on Tuesday it's so much easier to go everyday after that. It just gets me in the mood to work out lol. Tuesday is pretty much the first day of the week for me.

While I watch the BL it really motivates me and encourages me to push through the pain and reach my limits. I never watch the show unless I'm at the gym. I honestly think I've seen every episode this season atleast three times haha. Watching the show while I workout honestly does something for me. It's like when I hear Bob or Jillian yelling at the contestants to "Go!" or "Push!" it really makes me work even harder. There was one day in particular that I was jogging (and I normally don't jog, at least not a month ago when this happened) and I got really tired and decided to stop when suddenly, out of my iPod came the great voice of Jillian. She was yelling at Aubrey telling her to push. She was reminding her that her family needed her and her friends need her...my heart skipped a few beats because for a split second I actually felt like Jillian was there with me, standing infront of my treadmill screaming in my face. I jogged until a commercial came on lol.

Watching the BL this season has really changed my life. I feel like I'm there with the contestants, getting healthy with them. It's amazing! One of my favorite episodes is towards the beginning when the teams are going across the river in these little tiny boats with peddles. Once they get to the other side, they race up a mountain in order to gain imunity. Tara wins, of course, but the part that stood out to me was when Dan was climbing the mountain. His other teams mates went down to help him. As they were pushing him and encouraging him Mike looked at him and said, "You're showing every overweight teenager they can do it." That part in the show really touched my heart and made me realize that I have the strength and ability to do this. It will hurt and I will be in pain, but I didn't get fat overnight and I'm not going to get healthy overnight.

Another episode that really struck a place with me is episode 11 where they go home and compete in the marathon. The first time I watched this it didn't really say anything to me, then I was watching it again Monday afternoon and something happened. I decided to run for a minute then that minute turned into two. I stopped and started walking again. I caught my breath. The episode, at this point, was at the part where they were starting the marathon. Everyone was starting off strong, but they slowly started to get tired. I watched these amazing people and realized if they can do it, then so can I. I bumped the speed up to about 4.8 and started running again. I was at about 2.60 miles and I told myself I was going to run half a mile, without stopping. In the back of my mind I told myself it wasn't possible, but then watching all these amazing contestants run a marathon my mentality started to change. I kept running. They all jogged around the tracks. I kept going. I started getting tired and my legs were burning. As though they knew that I was doing this with them each of the family members and friends of the contestants started cheering for them and saying how proud they were of them. I told myself they were cheering for me. My friends and family are proud of me. I kept going. I finally got to 3 miles and I thought I was dieing. I wanted to stop. I wanted to give up. I kept running. I reached 3.07 miles...I kept going. I finally reached 3.10 miles which put me at exactly .50 miles. I literally stopped and stepped on the railing of the treadmill for a minute to catch my breath when something happened. I got extremely emotional. I started crying. I think I wrote about this in an earlier blog, but I don't care lol. For me that moment was amazing. I realized I was getting healthy and it was all because of the Biggest Loser.

I may have never met these people, and probably never will, but they are my heros. Each and everyone of them saved my life. And they are still saving my life. It's incredible. I could never thank them enough. I don't care who wins this season...in my heart, I am the biggest loser.